I feel completely without words lately trying to explain what the Lord is doing. I have felt a burden that started out as small and easy to carry a few weeks ago turn into a monster that brought me to isolation and fear and pain. All day yesterday I was trying to prepare myself for my time at the Prayer Center and figure out what the Lord wanted me to do, what He wanted me to ask of Him, what He wanted me to break free from. I got there and for the first few minutes I felt terrified. I was alone, without distraction, just me and the Lord. And it only took me falling to my knees for all of the anger, hurt, fear, questions to come out. I cried with the Lord for an hour. Worshipped Him. Rested in His love. Cried with Him some more. It was the first time in about six months that it’s just been me and the Lord. Nothing else. And I felt this tender brokenness that you feel when you finally come home after being gone for awhile. I realized once again that I am a child of God. He is my Father, and He adores me more than anything. Fear and pain and confusion can be thrown at me, but He loves me, and that is more powerful than anything in this world.
February 2, 2009
Feb 1/08/09
What an awesome place to focus solely on prayer! Thank you for creating such a place as this. Totally loved being alone and feeling free to pray out loud and dance to my heart’s content. Released, refueled, refreshed. -G
